What do You want?

Well this is an update of my blog post titled : What will I do in the future?

Yesterday I spent some of my time to talk with my friend 

who is leaving for America, under a scholarship, next week.

I was told that he got the scholarship by emailing the schools in US 

Asking whether they offer any scholarship for international students

and after going through tests and an interview, he got it.

I felt inspired because similar him, I want to study in Canada

So after going back to my room 

i googled for a list of high schools in Canada and managed to get names of a few schools

I started emailing them and asking about the scholarship they offer and

how to enroll for my 11th year.

This morning I checked my email and amazingly

one school was really fast and replied that they would be glad to accept a new student

anytime of this year or next year.

I am confused (again) to what should I do.

Studying in Singapore is a privilege but since I want to continue

my university in Canada,

it would be cheaper if I move there now and apply for a PR so when I 

enter the University, I could get much cheaper tuition fees 

even though for high school I may have to pay

not forgetting the penalty I may also have to pay for breaking my Scholarship bond..

On the other hand, if I don't go now

I will not break my scholarship's contract, no need to pay the

penalty, but may need to pay much more if I enter

the university there as I will be counted as an International student.

The tuition grants for university will only help me for at most $5000 

while the whole fee is almost $30,000

In conclusion, I'm confused..

What should I do?

What do God want in my life?

What do my parents think?

Then this verse came up

²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 

²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

(Matthew 6:25-27 - New International Version)
It says : Don't worry about your life.

It illustrates that even a bird that does no work has a future full of hope 

where God provides everything.

This teaches me to stop worrying of my future because I know it's in God's hands

and everything in His hands will 

really be in His hands

Its just up to us to believe that He will provide the best for us

at His best time.

Yet still we need to remember that we also need to do our parts, give our all

(refer to my post "Happy Birthday Indonesia") 

God Bless

Jennifer~ 

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Happy Birthday Indonesia

Zechariah 8:11-12

¹²Seeds will thrive in peacetime.

Vines will produce their grapes.

The land will yield its crops.

The sky will produce its dew.

I will give the few remaining people

all these things as an inheritance.

¹³Just as you, people of Judah and people of Israel,

have been a curse among the nations,

so I will now save you,

and you will become a blessing.

Don’t be afraid. Let your hands work hard.

(God's Word Translation)

It was an interesting day today,

as it was the first time I celebrated my nation's national day

in another country, Singapore.

I woke up quite early and rushed to the Indonesian Embassy this morning because the flag ceremony starts at 9.30am.

I was glad to meet my other Indonesian scholar friends there

as I hadn't seen them since even-myself-don't-know-when.

It just feels awesome when all the indonesians come together

to the embassy to celebrate our national day

though we are not in Indonesia.

I Believe it was the pride we felt about our nation that gathered all of us

there this morning.

Even though the weather was really hot,

it was a happy occasion when we saw our flag rose high and not some other country's flag :D

It makes me, and maybe all of the others, feel back home again

anyways, after reading a post in facebook, I decided to write about it : Zechariah 8:11-12

It's about God's promise for a nation, "What the Lord will do for Zion"

It is an amazing promise made by God who never breaks His promise

but as I read it again, I notice this part "Let your hands work hard",

it shows that even though God made a promise that He would never brake,

there are still terms-and-conditions :

He still needs us to do our part.

We can't just ask God to do His part while we ourselves do nothing.

We need to change ourselves first, do our best

to change our country and then expect God to do the things that aren't in our control.

I myself need to learn to work harder and build up my country Indonesia for a better place

I do hope our country could improve,

free of corruption, pollution, crime, drugs, etc.

Don't you, other Indonesians whoever is reading this,

want your country to be like that too?

Someone needs to start first, right? Let's start from ourselves :)

Last but not least, I wish Indonesia a very happy 65th birthday!

GBU

Jennifer~

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What will I do in the future?

So..

Here I am , again , finally after a few months not opening my blog..

Let me see, where to start..

I am now in one of my friend's house, doing nothing,

trying to think of something to do

and when someone mentioned my blog,

i decided to update it..

These past few days, or rather, weeks, I've been thinking of my future

Where should I go to? What should I do?

Which university will suit me the best?

Some universities like UBC and UCLA came to my mind,

but again, the question is, which course would I want to take?

Should I take something common and cool (i think), like finance, and become a business women,

or take something that people rarely takes, offering a wider opportunity to get a better job, like say, engineering?

Well some may say that it depends on your talent and interest.

But then another question came : What DO I really like?

Honestly I don't really know the answer to that question.

I do well in school, but none of the subjects that I take sparks my interest.

None of it makes me passionate enough to say : WOW its now *blablabla* time!

I do OK in most of my subjects, but again, none of them are of my interest.

I often take tests online to try to find out more about my interest, but yeah funny things appears like

"You would make a perfect model" *the result of some quiz online that I took just now*

I just hope one day, soon, God will show His plan for my life so at least I won't be so Blur anymore.

Last but not least, any suggestions ? :)

Thanks for taking time to read some stupid blog of mine,

Jennifer.

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