What do You want?

Well this is an update of my blog post titled : What will I do in the future?

Yesterday I spent some of my time to talk with my friend 

who is leaving for America, under a scholarship, next week.

I was told that he got the scholarship by emailing the schools in US 

Asking whether they offer any scholarship for international students

and after going through tests and an interview, he got it.

I felt inspired because similar him, I want to study in Canada

So after going back to my room 

i googled for a list of high schools in Canada and managed to get names of a few schools

I started emailing them and asking about the scholarship they offer and

how to enroll for my 11th year.

This morning I checked my email and amazingly

one school was really fast and replied that they would be glad to accept a new student

anytime of this year or next year.

I am confused (again) to what should I do.

Studying in Singapore is a privilege but since I want to continue

my university in Canada,

it would be cheaper if I move there now and apply for a PR so when I 

enter the University, I could get much cheaper tuition fees 

even though for high school I may have to pay

not forgetting the penalty I may also have to pay for breaking my Scholarship bond..

On the other hand, if I don't go now

I will not break my scholarship's contract, no need to pay the

penalty, but may need to pay much more if I enter

the university there as I will be counted as an International student.

The tuition grants for university will only help me for at most $5000 

while the whole fee is almost $30,000

In conclusion, I'm confused..

What should I do?

What do God want in my life?

What do my parents think?

Then this verse came up

²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?

²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 

²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

(Matthew 6:25-27 - New International Version)
It says : Don't worry about your life.

It illustrates that even a bird that does no work has a future full of hope 

where God provides everything.

This teaches me to stop worrying of my future because I know it's in God's hands

and everything in His hands will 

really be in His hands

Its just up to us to believe that He will provide the best for us

at His best time.

Yet still we need to remember that we also need to do our parts, give our all

(refer to my post "Happy Birthday Indonesia") 

God Bless

Jennifer~ 

190810

Happy Birthday Indonesia

Zechariah 8:11-12

¹²Seeds will thrive in peacetime.

Vines will produce their grapes.

The land will yield its crops.

The sky will produce its dew.

I will give the few remaining people

all these things as an inheritance.

¹³Just as you, people of Judah and people of Israel,

have been a curse among the nations,

so I will now save you,

and you will become a blessing.

Don’t be afraid. Let your hands work hard.

(God's Word Translation)

It was an interesting day today,

as it was the first time I celebrated my nation's national day

in another country, Singapore.

I woke up quite early and rushed to the Indonesian Embassy this morning because the flag ceremony starts at 9.30am.

I was glad to meet my other Indonesian scholar friends there

as I hadn't seen them since even-myself-don't-know-when.

It just feels awesome when all the indonesians come together

to the embassy to celebrate our national day

though we are not in Indonesia.

I Believe it was the pride we felt about our nation that gathered all of us

there this morning.

Even though the weather was really hot,

it was a happy occasion when we saw our flag rose high and not some other country's flag :D

It makes me, and maybe all of the others, feel back home again

anyways, after reading a post in facebook, I decided to write about it : Zechariah 8:11-12

It's about God's promise for a nation, "What the Lord will do for Zion"

It is an amazing promise made by God who never breaks His promise

but as I read it again, I notice this part "Let your hands work hard",

it shows that even though God made a promise that He would never brake,

there are still terms-and-conditions :

He still needs us to do our part.

We can't just ask God to do His part while we ourselves do nothing.

We need to change ourselves first, do our best

to change our country and then expect God to do the things that aren't in our control.

I myself need to learn to work harder and build up my country Indonesia for a better place

I do hope our country could improve,

free of corruption, pollution, crime, drugs, etc.

Don't you, other Indonesians whoever is reading this,

want your country to be like that too?

Someone needs to start first, right? Let's start from ourselves :)

Last but not least, I wish Indonesia a very happy 65th birthday!

GBU

Jennifer~

170810

What will I do in the future?

So..

Here I am , again , finally after a few months not opening my blog..

Let me see, where to start..

I am now in one of my friend's house, doing nothing,

trying to think of something to do

and when someone mentioned my blog,

i decided to update it..

These past few days, or rather, weeks, I've been thinking of my future

Where should I go to? What should I do?

Which university will suit me the best?

Some universities like UBC and UCLA came to my mind,

but again, the question is, which course would I want to take?

Should I take something common and cool (i think), like finance, and become a business women,

or take something that people rarely takes, offering a wider opportunity to get a better job, like say, engineering?

Well some may say that it depends on your talent and interest.

But then another question came : What DO I really like?

Honestly I don't really know the answer to that question.

I do well in school, but none of the subjects that I take sparks my interest.

None of it makes me passionate enough to say : WOW its now *blablabla* time!

I do OK in most of my subjects, but again, none of them are of my interest.

I often take tests online to try to find out more about my interest, but yeah funny things appears like

"You would make a perfect model" *the result of some quiz online that I took just now*

I just hope one day, soon, God will show His plan for my life so at least I won't be so Blur anymore.

Last but not least, any suggestions ? :)

Thanks for taking time to read some stupid blog of mine,

Jennifer.

150818

Term 3 Week 3

Well, basically it has been a month now from the day I went back to Surabaya

and it has been 3 weeks after I arrived back in this "fine" city.

For this past 3 weeks, a lot of things happened

one of the key events is my O Level Malay Oral.

After the holiday, we practiced a lot to ace our oral exam on last Monday

and I do hope to ace :D

another important event happened on the first Sunday after school reopened

which is MDC Singapore's Pastor wedding thanksgiving dinner

at Jurong Country Club. I sang 2 songs, "Kita Satu" and "At the Beginning" :D

A few of my Indonesian friends attended the dinner and I was happy to meet them here :)

We went out together to Marina Barrage and took loads of pictures :D

Another event that I went through was the National Day Parade 2010 Preview

All the scholars had to gather at City hall last Saturday to go for the show.

All though I thought i would be a waste of time at the beginning,

after i watched the show, I was happy because

the show was so pretty (all the colorful lights, etc)

and it was nice to see those kind of shows once in a while

hmm let me see..

Oh yeah, another thing that happened was me falling sick on the third day of school

I had to take MC because of my high fever

and it felt good to not go to school that day :)

Next week will be my Malay Listening O Level test

and since we practiced twice alr in school

I hope to achieve my best :)

Jennifer~

160710

I love you, Dad :)

Today is the 26th of May 2010,

and it's my dad's birthday :)

So I'm dedicating this post to my dad :)

About one hour ago,

I finished reading the book I had been reading for this past 2 weeks,

"the Last Song"

It tells a story about a young girl,

who hates her father because he left their family

and had not talk to him for 3 years.

On the third year, her mom forced her and her younger brother

to spend their summer with their dad.

The girl rebelled, but she had no choice but to follow her mother's will, reluctantly.

She made friends with "bad" teenagers there

and caught herself in trouble.

Her father, however, faced her rebellious acts patiently,

he trusted her, loved her more than life itself,

he was always there for her.

Slowly, the girl changed as she felt true love there,

she spent more time with her father each day.

When summer is about to come to an end,

she found out that her dad suffers from stomach cancer

and only has a few months to live.

She regretted that she had been very mean and unfair to her dad

she felt proud to gave a dad like him who was caring and loving,

who had Holy Spirit guiding him.

She decided not to go back to NY,

instead, she stayed there and took care of her dad

until he finally passed away.

I am very touched with this story, I cried in so many parts of the book.

I learned one lesson :

When there is still time,

show your love to your Dad and Mom

I reflected back to my own life,

maybe I had not been a good daughter for my parents,

but now I'm gonna try to change it

I want to make my dad and mom proud and happy

I truly love you, dad.

Happy Birthday

have a safe trip back from Guang Zhou,

I miss you and Mom,

See you soon

Lots of Love from your daughter

When my life turns upside down

Here I am back to opening my blog

after 3 months never posting anything

haha

Well...

the reason is, I could never find a right time

to update my blog..

So. anyways,

just now as i was in sitting in geography class,

i felt bored..

I opened my journal and decided to write

whatever was on my mind at that moment

and this was what i wrote :

"Love without you is just a word

no one to share it with

no one to feel it's beauty with

and definitely no one to make realize it's existence in earth

It's just nothing without you beside me..

Walking on this path alone

wondering why did it happened

It took away what I enjoyed most here,

being with you,

talking to you

or even just simply sitting there next to you without a single word spoken

I don't know how to bear it any more.

Now being here alone,

I wonder what are you doing,

wondering if I could just turn back time and be with you..."

Yeah. melancholic me.

I wrote that because I was frustrated.

I had a bad morning today and I don't

know who i could share it with.

So here I am sharing it to whoever is reading it.

Actually the main problem is not that I am sad because i lost him

it is because i feel lonely here..

and it appears that he's the only one who is, but now was, there for me

in all times..

Even in School, I do not have much friends.

most of them just don't understand me.

well i couldn't blame them for that..

we have different back grounds..

In the end I just hope that I could find that special someone :)

Bless you all readers. :)

Jennifer

210510

my last month in 2009 in Singapore

So.. what have i been doing ?

December 2009

I moved to a new hostel on the 4th..

River Valley High Boarding School

tmpat nya ga ada AC,

tp se nggak"nya gedung nya baru

which means that all rooms are new

which means : new beds new pillows and

hahahaaEverything new !! :D

Di sebelah tuh foto sebagian kmar ku

Aku sekamar sama anak PRC , Gaby ( an English name that I suggested to her -

I'm very bad at memorizing Chinese names LOL)

Kabar baiknya lagi itu :

di hostel ini ada jasa laundry- so i don't need to do my own laundry

like in the last hostel :D

Selaen itu, bridging course class nya pindah k Hostel..

so we don't need to go to school until school re-opens..

this benefits me a lot,

no need to spend money on bus trips to School, and

no need to spend money on lunch, :D

But ..

Bad news nya :

Setiap pagi di hostel kita ini,

ad PT (cuma slama skolah blom mulai)!!

jam 7 kita harus kumpul di Running track nya Hostel (keren bgt ada running track) haha

dan kita olahraga pa

gi.. ==

Olahraga nya bukan yg ringan",

mrka ga nanggung" kalo ngasi tugas...

Lari minimal 1km per hari !! ><

pernah 1 kali kita lari 1,6 km..

trus stlah itu kadang kita d suru exercise yg laen

kyk push up, chin up dsb ==

PE membuat ku capekk n mbuat aku ngantok di kelas ==

ckckck

tp stelah melalui semua PT,

aku baru sadar kalo PT itu penting

buat nyiapin kita untuk ujian NAPFA..

lari 2,4km dsb !! ==

18 Dec 2009

malem itu malem penting buat scholar dari Commonwealth batch 3 :D

Soalnyaa.

malem itu kita perform suatu drama yang d buat selama 1 mggu..

Drama kita itu tentang kehidupan kita sebelum dapet scholarship (Jalan", bergossip d starbucks, dll)

bagian itu d ceritakan dengan klip yg kami shoot d bnyak tmpt.. (Jurong point, Hostel, Bus interchange, popular)

Waktu syuting banyak banget yang liadin kita" hahahaha:D

lalu d sambung dengan kehidupan kami begitu mendarat d Singapore, mulai pelajaran, dan kehidupan d hostel,

bagian ini d ceritakan dengan drama..

lalu d bagian tengah terdapat klip" iklan yg kami syuting d hostel :D

klip" nya mengkritik kekurangan fasilitas dari hostel baru kami :D

Semua klip d edit oleh tim multimedia : Ella n me LOL

Judul drama nyaa... "Unity in diversity"

Drama kami dapet respon yg bagus dr guru" n tmn" hostel yg laen..

bahkan katanya judul drama kami mau nya d jadiin moto hostel :D hahahah

Drama nya menurut ku sih keren..

banyak effort untuk mmbuatnya hahaha

* itu foto kita" lagi ngerjain drama nya hahahahaha :D

23 Dec 2009

hari ini kita smua d RVHBS d acak lagi kamarnya

kali ini kamar kita bakal jadi tetap buat 1 taon,,

n guess what,,, aku sekamar sama :

JESEREEN :D hahahaa dia tmen ku sesekolah dari Malay hahaha :D

cool ! yg laen smua d acak n dapet anak PRC sbgai roommate nya.. hahaha

ga enak nya kamar ku itu, aku dpt kamar yg bekas d pake ma anak laen, soal ny kmr ku d lantai 5...

nah yg dpt d lantai 7 k atas kamar nya baru smua... ==

kamar ku kotor lg pas aku pndh ==

jd stelah pindahan kita bersih" kamar de..

what a tiring day ==

24 Dec 2009

Hari ini Christmas eve :D hahaha

I went to bugis with natcha n jesereen...

it was after our half day bridging class with ms cheryll :D

today she bought a cake for us and we ate it together... xD

any way,,

after finishing our shoppin

g from bugis we went to Orchard :D

Jam 7 aku ada janji sama auntie mable di one fullerton dket merlion

kita d ajak makan sama tmn nya ai mable di Forlino..

it was great! mkanan e high class haha

keren banget tmpat nya,,

view nya amazing :D

i drank 2 glasses of wine and 2 glasses of champaign :D

but i wasnt drunk.. amAzing :D

i arrived back at the hostel at 12AM :D

what a nice day :D

25 Dec 2009

it was a very special day, as it was CHRISTMAS DAY :D

I went to orchard with Ella, natcha, Jes, Benz, Shawn hahahaha

then we ate buffet at swensens !! :D we were also joined by other school thai schlars :D

it was fun !! we ate till our stomach felt like it was going to explode, :D

then we walked around orchard at night..

it was freaking crowded

the roads were blocked

everyone roamed around the roads hahahaha

:D

I accidentally met titi in borders today ! :D

26-31 Dec 2009

Hari ini tmn" dr Sby dateng .. yey !! ahahha XD

Steven , Kevin , (james nyusul) hahahaa

aku njemput mreka k airport n hbs gt d ajak k rumah ko reggie (yg waktu itu aku masi ga tau nama nya) hahahaha

mlm itu aku n steven tiba" d suruh tampil tgl 27 nya d gereja !!

jadi dengan persiapan yg super dikit kita tampil .. hahahaha

nyanyi lagu : "Ini aku,, smua milik ku.." :D

lalu hari" ku d lanjutkan dgn jalan" bareng mreka"

Slaen itu...

karena mereka lah aku jadi lebih knal sama org" grjaa...

orang" trnytaa seru",, hahaha

soalnyaa.. biasa nya aku hbs grja sama tj n ridge, kita lgsg cabut , ga knal sapa" sihh hahaha

karena ada tmn" dr sby,, aku jadi sering jalan" sama org" grja jadi lbh kenal, n sejak itu

tiap selsai greja aku uda ga prna langsung cabut lagi :D hahahaha