I love you, Dad :)

Today is the 26th of May 2010,

and it's my dad's birthday :)

So I'm dedicating this post to my dad :)

About one hour ago,

I finished reading the book I had been reading for this past 2 weeks,

"the Last Song"

It tells a story about a young girl,

who hates her father because he left their family

and had not talk to him for 3 years.

On the third year, her mom forced her and her younger brother

to spend their summer with their dad.

The girl rebelled, but she had no choice but to follow her mother's will, reluctantly.

She made friends with "bad" teenagers there

and caught herself in trouble.

Her father, however, faced her rebellious acts patiently,

he trusted her, loved her more than life itself,

he was always there for her.

Slowly, the girl changed as she felt true love there,

she spent more time with her father each day.

When summer is about to come to an end,

she found out that her dad suffers from stomach cancer

and only has a few months to live.

She regretted that she had been very mean and unfair to her dad

she felt proud to gave a dad like him who was caring and loving,

who had Holy Spirit guiding him.

She decided not to go back to NY,

instead, she stayed there and took care of her dad

until he finally passed away.

I am very touched with this story, I cried in so many parts of the book.

I learned one lesson :

When there is still time,

show your love to your Dad and Mom

I reflected back to my own life,

maybe I had not been a good daughter for my parents,

but now I'm gonna try to change it

I want to make my dad and mom proud and happy

I truly love you, dad.

Happy Birthday

have a safe trip back from Guang Zhou,

I miss you and Mom,

See you soon

Lots of Love from your daughter

When my life turns upside down

Here I am back to opening my blog

after 3 months never posting anything

haha

Well...

the reason is, I could never find a right time

to update my blog..

So. anyways,

just now as i was in sitting in geography class,

i felt bored..

I opened my journal and decided to write

whatever was on my mind at that moment

and this was what i wrote :

"Love without you is just a word

no one to share it with

no one to feel it's beauty with

and definitely no one to make realize it's existence in earth

It's just nothing without you beside me..

Walking on this path alone

wondering why did it happened

It took away what I enjoyed most here,

being with you,

talking to you

or even just simply sitting there next to you without a single word spoken

I don't know how to bear it any more.

Now being here alone,

I wonder what are you doing,

wondering if I could just turn back time and be with you..."

Yeah. melancholic me.

I wrote that because I was frustrated.

I had a bad morning today and I don't

know who i could share it with.

So here I am sharing it to whoever is reading it.

Actually the main problem is not that I am sad because i lost him

it is because i feel lonely here..

and it appears that he's the only one who is, but now was, there for me

in all times..

Even in School, I do not have much friends.

most of them just don't understand me.

well i couldn't blame them for that..

we have different back grounds..

In the end I just hope that I could find that special someone :)

Bless you all readers. :)

Jennifer

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